"You Never Gave a Damn, Watching Me Work so Hard to Please You"

So the good stuff first, tonight I saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. One word, Amazing. I love the HP books and could read them over and over. Always great to indulge in a place of imagination and cool dramas. I also bought some clothes for my self (which for me is like a almost rare thing).

Now on to the bad stuff. First to begin with, I have one true best friend. She lives all the way in Aurora (she used to live by me) and is about 45 minutes away. While I understand that she cannot make it out here very often, I usually see her about once a week. But when she gets boyfriends, it starts to become a random cycle. Well I had wanted her to come see Harry Potter with me and some people, but she didnt want to go in the end. She told me she didnt want to make the drive, but of course she was with her boyfriend then, so how credible is her word? Plus I havent seen her in a while because of our sometimes conflicting schedules, but she was free tonight and so was I, but I still became second best. I hate that, the one person I am supposed to be able to rely on is the one that places me on the top shelf away from everything else. What a friend, right? Second my other best friend that lives by me tries to see to think he owns me. No one owns me, he tried telling me I had to follow rules, and I told him there are no rules except the golden rule. The golden rule is I respect you and you respect me. We got to this point because his girlfriend and I teamed up against him on a tiny joke, and he took it way out of proportion. But yet ironic because he makes fun of me all the time, but I never expect an apology from him because 1. he wont give it to me and 2. because we are friends and we should look past those menail things. Well aparently not. The friends I find right?

Now it may seem as if i am complaining a lot over little matters, but it matters to me most of all. I give all the time never really asking for anything return except the unconditional love from them. I just want to find a friend who will see that. I have absolutely no problem doing things for them as long as I know that at the end of the day, when I need them the absolute most, they will be there.

With that said, Good night and let your dreams soar...

With Love,
Randy